Yay for 30!

I try not to get too excited about things- because it seems whenever I get TOO optimistic I get bad news. So, I am going to quietly celebrate hitting 30 weeks today, passing my fetal fibronectin test, and passing the cervical check (no dilation). I did, however, agree to staying here in the hospital another week- just to be safe.

I know if I go home I will just end up coming right back. My mother is there- and we do not get along very well- I know I would allow her to stress me out into a full blown contraction session on a regular basis. The problem, of course, is how much I miss my son. Oh it's killing me not to see him every day. But, when he comes here- he is kind of a disaster in the room and always ends up getting hurt by tripping on the floor or banging into the wall. He's clumsy like someone else I know.

Anyhow- I wasn't making some big celebration on Facebook today since like I said I wanted things to remain low key. I am getting more and more excited with every day that passes to meet these two boys beating the crap out of my stomach. I guess it really shouldn't be as surreal as it is- but I still can't get over it. I am still as dumbfounded as I was April 2nd and we found out we were about to get double the trouble--just much, much closer to the finish line.

If there is anyone out there reading this with advice on multiples, I'd love to hear it.

Shower Giveaway Minnesota Mama's Must Haves and J. leigh designz!

One of my favorite blogs (Minnesota Mama's Must Haves) is partnering with J. Leigh Designz for a big baby event - Bump 2 Baby, that starts September 1st. They have some really awesome giveaways including a Naturepedic Organic Mattress, and 4Moms infant tub. I'm not sure about everything they are giving away- but the teaser she posted is enough to get me interested for the twins..and if I won anything I already have- well I have quite a few pregnant friends who might end up with an awesome shower gift. Hands off people, the Mamaroo is mine. I have been lusting after this 4MOMS item for ages now!

More to complain.

Here I am back again. Here since Tuesday after my cervical ultrasound showed more shortening. Now we're down to 1.3. AND baby B has extra fluid- so that is adding pressure to my cervix. I love my doc and all- and I like that he is so cautious, but oh. This sucks.

We were 29 weeks on Tuesday- and want to keep going. So the terb shots, the steroid shots, and now the glucose checks are a must. So not what I want to be doing! I am sick already of the diabetic diet- and it's literally been one day. I am here until Monday. I am so missing my apple pie ala mode that I want to cry.

This blood sugar fiasco isn't forever. Apparently the steroid shots create this havoc on my system and it should even back out.

Anyhow. I have a huge headache and just feeling sorry for myself. I am so sick of living in fear that I am going to drop these twins early.

Blah..back in the hospital week 29

Unfortunately I am spending the 18 month birthday of my son back in the hospital where I had him--alone. Well, I'm never alone- but as for people on the outside of me, yes, alone. I went back in for a cervix check today and it had gone down from a 1.9 last Tuesday to a 1.3 today. Not what we wanted to hear.

So here I am, back in the hospital on a slew of medications to stop the contractions- hoping against hope that they work so I don't a) have to go on the magnesium or b) actually go into labor. It's upsetting to say the least, but at least this time we are farther along and people seem more optomistic that this is preventative.

Good news today, is that I am on a roll with blog winnings! I won a $75 gc to Zutano for the boys' coming home outfits from Double Duty Mommy, and a neato pair of SLIX boxers for my husband from Potamus Prefers. Friday I had a double whammy with a $100 gc win to Amazon on life360's blog, and a HUGE win from Baby Gizmo's weekly giveaway- a Safety 1st Indigo Travel System. I consider myself very, very lucky---and being on bed rest entering contests all day long doesn't hurt :)

Week 28 and counting...

So yesterday I hit week 28! We're pretty excited about that. I told my husband that from here on out I would like to celebrate every week with an online purchase. This actually works to his advantage- because being online all day---shopping can get a little, shall we say, tempting? So this week I picked up a beautiful Elle Macpherson nursing bra last week, a teething bling necklace, and the week before that I got a Glamourmom nursing tank. All necessary items, right? I agree. I got fantastic deals on everything too- the bra at Zulily and the teether and nursing tank at Babysteals.

Anyhow- if I limit myself to a 30.00 or so range- that's not bad at all. I mean, he's totally scoring since I can't go to Target bi-weekly as it is.

And, so far so good. Cervix was holding firm at a 1.9, and today I had the dreaded glucose test. I just hope it comes back negative since I can really only deal with one or two pregnancy catastrophes at a time- and pre term labor certainly counts as at least one.

BumbleWee Nursing Wear~

Win a free nursing top at BumbleWee! They are running a contest where they are giving away a fantastic top daily....nice tops too- I doubt I will be having the time to go anywhere that appreciates them (haha, maybe the pedi office) but it just makes you feel better to have something nice to put on- even just while sitting around the house. Enter here, and do so daily!

*Update- so I won! I got an email Wednesday night that I won a top and picked out an adorable Japanese Weekend nursing/maternity top valued at $72. Thanks Bumble Wee!

Whew..breathe.

So I am glad that things have really calmed down. It's pretty funny actually how the very day we got rid of the in home contraction monitor, I stopped having them. I am a person who unfortunately is extremely susceptible to stress, and I let it get to me. Why can't I be more like my husband and let it just roll off? With my first pregnancy I ended up with pre-eclampsia at 25 weeks. Hospitalized, then home on bed rest for two weeks. I had my son at 37 weeks- and was glad we made it that far. Apparently teaching behavioral issue/low level 9th graders wasn't doing too much for my stress level there either.

I don't want to gripe though- since I have to say- I needed to seek out help from perfect strangers, friends, and family to help us these weeks. Last week a friend drove 12 hours, left her sons and husband for four days to help- and this week my mother in law took off a week from work to come here. The next two weeks are a revolving door of friends with kids and moms that I haven't even met--but they are in the multiples club and have volunteered to help with my son!!! Can you believe that? My mom gets here the 26th, and will have my 90 year old grandmother in tow. Her health is failing and my mother is the only caregiver. I guess they are looking at it as a Thelma & Louise type operation. Which I guess is appropriate since my grandma's name is Themla.

Here's to making it 10 more weeks!!!!

Not 'matchy matchy' exactly....

So I saw this last night...and love it. I am not going to match the twins- but seriously..how can these be resisted??? Tot-a-Lot clothing..swoon.

Good updates...

So I haven't really posted anything substantial for a while- if at all. I admit I have been pretty bummed out about everything- and worrying that I was becoming depressed without any good news. Well today, I finally got some!

I had another weekly appointment- and was so nervous I thought I was going to break down. I just couldn't hear that my cervix had gotten smaller- I couldn't..and thankfully- it didn't! I held firm at a 1.8, which really relieved me. I also took the FFN (fetal fibronectin) test, which I passed!

And, news of all news, I can get rid of this damn in home contraction monitor. The doc said if it has done nothing but cause stress, and the results really aren't telling them anything- why keep doing it? He wasn't going to keep making the company money just to keep doing it (I liked that part)...but in all honesty, it had become the bane of my existence. I was so stressed out every day..just waiting. And waiting to do it. It was awful. And now- no more! Yeah!!!!

So...I stay on strict bedrest...but it's working, and that's the key. It's going to suck having to pay top dollar for a babysitter then next week and a half, but it must be done. These kids have to keep cooking!!

So what to do..SHOP Zutano.

So here I am, bedrest...and stuck with just the computer. How can I not look at the adorable Itzy Bitzy line of Zutano and not dream of seeing my little guys come home from the hospital in their outfits???

I had a Zutano outfit for my son's coming home outfit (the puppies) almost 2 years ago- and if I can win (just as YOU can) a $75 gc to Zutano via Double Duty Mommy here.

Also, check out Zutano their clothes are adorable...too cute:

UPDATE: I won:) Can't wait to pic out the coming home outfits for the boys. Their warehouse reopens on Oct 1st- so we'll be cutting it close!!! Thanks so much DDM :)

Bedrest.

So here we are at Day 2 of total bedrest. For anyone who has experienced it- you know how not fun it really is....it's even less fun this time around when I have a toddler.

We had to spend a very stressful night at the hospital on Wednesday, I was contracting more than the monitor liked to see- so at 11 pm we headed over. Fortunately, things slowed down quite a bit overnight, and in the morning I was still doing well. I never had to have the IV meds either- just IV fluids- which is bad enough since I hate IV's completely as it is.

So now..I just feel like a ticking time bomb.